Category: Emotions


Sunday we rested

Filed under: Cleaning, Emotions
February 21, 2011

or at least that was the plan, but my head was splitting, and wouldn’t you know I would find more stuff to throw out. Then I went to get coffee, and got yelled at because “Tigger needed the car.” I was confused since I thought that the car was mine on the weekends but now I guess that has changed. If the boys need the car they get it.

It made me mad, I get mad when the rules get changed and nobody tells me. I cried the rest of the day. Which of course made my eyes red and swollen and made my head ache. I was going to quit all my games on Words with Friends, but @alisonfaye wouldn’t let me. That kind of made me realize that no matter what other people do, in the end, I decide the course of my life. I did however cut Tigger’s iTunes allowance in half. If he can use my car whenever he wants, why should I give him so much money?

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I have come full circle

Filed under: Emotions, Work
May 8, 2010

from angry about him not giving me the books, to hurt that he wouldn’t give me MY books, to acceptance/indifference/apathy (yes I am aware that indifference and apathy are the same thing, but there are nuances of difference in the two, don’t make me get out my dictionary). When he told me this morning where the books were I told him I didn’t want them anymore. He said he was sorry but I’m not sure he really got it. That it was never about the books, it was about the lack of respect for me and whats mine.

Of course, I can’t demand respect, it has to be earned, and I thought I had, I guess not, I guess I am not clever enough for him to respect me. Good thing that I am not going to be living there forever. I can’t wait to leave.

That is another thing, this business with Gov. Dave (quite possibly the stupidest governor in the history of NYS) has me thinking that my plans to move out will be pushed back indefinitely and that has me annoyed. The worst part is the not knowing, not knowing what is going to happen. Some people say it is not going to happen, but I worry, its my life you know, he is messing with my life.

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Another little rant

Filed under: Emotions, Family N Friends
May 7, 2010

This time about Tigger, I ordered two books one for him and one for me, only he kept both of them. This time he has just gone TOO far and I want my book. Actually now I want both of them and he can have them when he pays me for them.

I don’t know why I am so angry, I don’t normally get angry like this. I hope I calm down before morning because I really don’t want to start screaming and yelling. That would certainly not help things with D recovering from surgery and all.

Tomorrow is a Manhattan day, maybe that is what is wrong, it has been too long since I have been able to wander about Manhattan with Em. Talk to you later.

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Missed it

Filed under: Emotions, Family N Friends, Uncategorized
July 19, 2008

Missed posting every day by 53 minutes. When I tried earlier the Wi-fi was not working. I know I could have sent an e-mail, like I do at work but I just didn’t feel like it. Had a bad day, not the whole day, but you know how one upsetting thing can ruin your whole day? That’s what happened to me. Except I had two things happen, it was only when the second thing made me cry that I realized how upset I was about the first thing.

The second thing was I got yelled at. Not in person, over the phone, that was when I realized my best friend would rather spend time with someone else than with me, so does that mean we are not best friends anymore? I don’t know and I am trying to convince myself that it doesn’t, that we are still best friends, but I can’t ask her about it, so maybe we aren’t. My stomach is all tied up in knots now. I wish I had some beer or vodka or anything.

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Not a very good day

Filed under: Crafts, Emotions, Family N Friends, Health
April 6, 2008

Things going on today have left me in a bad mood. I started off with a headache I still have. I overhead some unflattering comments about me from M. The kids were fighting before M’s family got here and caused her more stress. They got in, I don’t know when, I was sulking in the basement. I didn’t get any sewing done, I wanted to but couldn’t. I made my necklace. I will take a picture of it for later. I used some leftover beads from the necklace I made for Gwen and some new beads I ordered. Right now I am watching murder by the book instead of going to bed like I should. I need to brush my teeth and go to bed, except I just heated some water to drink.

I also got my period today. So that is something else to bug me. I tried to order some contacts from 1800 contacts but the prices are wrong. I need to send them another e-mail to explain what I meant.

This is the book I just finished. I have become obsessed with reading all the books in the series.

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Lost thoughts

Filed under: Emotions, Work
March 11, 2008

I had something I was going to say, I remember thinking, I have to e-mail this to my blog so I can remember it, but that is all I remember. I don’t remember if I thought of something while waiting for the traffic on the bridge or a thought about the girl on the subway with her pants tied into her shoelaces. Or that I tried Fage yogurt for the first time today.

I have been reading British and Scottish authors and I think I am starting to think like them.

I was so mad last night about the governor, and today I have regained my calm. I keep telling myself, this is why man is not meant to rule.

From a Message board post:

Right before Spitzer’s wife stood up beside him I bet she told him, “You think you paid a lot to get screwwed by that hookker? Wait until my lawyers are done with you.”

At least that’s what I would have said.

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Stitch loves driving

Filed under: Emotions, Family N Friends
March 7, 2008

So I suppose I should say why I am mad at the Booktalk Posters. I was feeling like they were acting like a bunch of old ladies, I said Sassy had surgery and no one posted anything, normally they are all huggy, nothing, then I mention Abby and they are throwing advise at me like I asked for it! Well no thanks.

Now Stitch loves driving. It is his favorite thing. Well not really. D’s van has not been running so I have been getting dropped off and picked up and Stitch has driven my car almost every day this week. He even drove over the bridge and in Newburgh, while he was following D. It is almost scary.

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New Kitty

Filed under: Animals, Emotions, Family N Friends
March 3, 2008

Well, the kitty’s name is now Abby. She is really a nice cat. She stayed in all day yesterday and last night and seems perfectly content. She used the litter box M got for her. Stitch said she kept him up with her purring, then when she started to cry he petted her and Sassy hit him in the head. Tigger sent me a text when I was on the train that she almost woke D up. Then he says ‘not good’. It will be next.

“abby almost woke up daddy
not good”

I have been putting in Pepsi points. M has been giving them to me. She has been asking for the Rainbow song. Some group has redone, “Over the Rainbow” a group called The Hawaiian Rainbow Singers. Anyway, I downloaded it last night. She doesn’t have an MP3 player right now, so I put it on her phone for her. It sounds better on her phone than mine. Anyway, I think that is all I have to say for now. Except I am mad at the Booktalk posters.

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Cell phone text snippits.

Filed under: Emotions
January 29, 2008

We were laughing at people sneaking books into the bathroom to read them. I suppose that is better then sneaking into the bathroom so the boss doesn’t see you crying. Then lying to him when he says “I know you are mad at me.” I mean, what am I supposed to say, “Yes, and I have been in the bathroom crying I am so mad at you.”

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Rest of the day

Filed under: Cleaning, Emotions, Family N Friends
January 19, 2008

I like this font. So the rest of the day was not so bad. We cleaned. I wanted to get gas in my car, and go to the library, so M wanted me to get lunch. So Stitch went with me. I parallel parked at the library! I returned one book, got two books, they had to reorder one book that had not come. Then we went to Arby’s to get lunch.

We were cleaning because Hardins were coming for dinner. We had fun and the kids were crazzzy excited to play together. In the midst of all this the calls came for M. So now I am sad, not extremely, just sad.

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