Two texts to share from M: Sat. Jan 19, 3:35 pm
karen called
dad is in a coma ….the nurse
says 12~24 hours
From: M Sat. Jan 19, 6:11 pm
dad died at 545
Category: Emotions
I did not want to post, I am so upset. I am feeling like just a stupid stupid girl right now. Well , I am feeling a little better than I felt a few hours ago. Now I have to go put my glasses in my bathroom so I can go to bed.
It is very hard to find names for these posts when nothing really happens, I am just upset and want to vent. This is the only place I feel comfortable doing that. If you vent on the WW boards someone will respond trying to cheer you up and I don’t want that. Anyway, I went to get a CD player for my car and couldn’t. So I was going to buy myself a new pretty MP3 player, just because, but I didn’t then when I mentioned it to M she ridiculed me for wanting to spend money for something I already had. I wanted it because I was upset and it is nicer than the one I have. Then I came down and put my head on my bed and cried. I am so STUPID, STUPID, STUPID.
I should know. I have lived with myself for years. So I went to Amazon and bought some songs for my old ugly MP3 player. Now that I have vented. I am going to go print my scriptures for tomorrow.
The appropriate use police have caught up with me. So for a while I will not be blogging from work, not that I did very much anyway and not going on WW (WAAW) or checking my e-mail.
When I was cleaning my room I found some old cross stitch projects, along with the reading glasses I bought to do them. So that helped me get over being mad.
Someone mentioned that a friend of her daughters was just diagnosed with leukemia. She is 13. I thought about Nathan and wondered if I should say anything. Of course I didn’t, why make somebody feel sad when they want to feel hope? Anyway, Nathan was 20 years ago, there has been tremendous progress made in treatments since then.
Sunday was Kate and Josh’s going away party. I ate too much.
I have made it back to Allsport. Yay for me!
Well I am going to check my WW threads and then stitch some, then go to bed.
BYE BYE
Anger is such a destructive emotion. I didn’t go to the gym last night because I was angry. I ate a peanut candy bar Thursday because I was angry. I am at the library right now. My computer at home is working but I needed to get out. I was cleaning my room, cause I am angry and needed a break. I went to Asian Ginger for lunch then walked here. After I finish checking my WW posts I will get my book and go home. First I need to rest.
Belleza
just a (transplanted) city girl 