>I was posting on this forum I like, I post there a lot, and I said something and got the response, “You do know what *** is slang for, don’t you Foxx?” Well, of course I didn’t, and it felt like high school all over again, when the kids would tell jokes and I had no idea what they were talking about, I would have to go to my friend Angel and ask her, “Why is ‘because the British were coming’ funny?” And she would explain it to me, and she never laughed at me, not to my face and I am sure not behind my back either, she wasn’t like that. I knew the kids in class would laugh, in my face, I knew this from experience, for me high school was torture, dealing with other kids was hard for me.
So when I read that, I didn’t have Angel to ask, so I went to the Urban Dictionary, and the feeling I had was the same feeling I got in high school, that I was the stupidest kid in the class, not in the lessons, but in life knowledge. I was upset, and perplexed that I was upset by the opinion of people I don’t even know, just communicate with on a public forum. Just like the kids in high school didn’t really matter, a few years out of high school, I didn’t even remember their names, a few more years and I was far away, in a better place, making a new life for myself.
And this too will pass, although I am kicking myself for being a stupid kid, not stupid cause I didn’t know what they were saying, stupid for letting it get to me.
Belleza
just a (transplanted) city girl 